Posts Tagged ‘depression’

Not Knowing

I know not what will befall me: God hangs a mist o’er my eyes;
And thus, each step of my onward path, He makes new scenes arise.
And every joy He sends to me comes like a sweet surprise.

I see not a step before me as I tread on another year;
But I’ve left the past in God’s keeping,—the future His mercy shall clear.
And what looks dark in the distance may brighten as I draw near.

For perhaps the dreaded future is less bitter than I think;
The Lord may sweeten the waters before I stoop to drink.
Or, if Marah must be Marah, He will stand beside its brink.
It may be He keeps waiting, for the coming of my feet.

Some gift of such rare blessedness, some joy so strangely sweet,
That my lips shall only tremble with the thanks they cannot speak.

O restful, blissful ignorance! ’tis blessed not to know;
It keeps me still in those mighty Arms which will not let me go,
And lulls my weariness to rest on the Bosom that loves me so.

So I go on not knowing,—I would not if I might;
I would rather walk in the dark with God than go alone in the light;
I would rather walk with Him by faith than walk alone by sight.

My heart shrinks back from trials which the future may disclose,
Yet I never had sorrow but what the dear Lord chose;
So I send the coming tears back with the whispered words, “He knows.”

–Mary Gardiner Brainard, ‘Not Knowing’, Acts 20:22 “Not knowing what will befall me there.”


We’re not crazy

…Well, maybe a little. 😉

Just kidding.

Even though sometimes your symptoms make you feel like you’re going to LOSE YOUR MIND – they won’t. Promise. Because, Dysautonomia is NOT caused by any  mental disorder or disease. Yes, part of it involves your brain, but your thoughts are still YOUR thoughts. You can control them. So whether you think you’re having a heart attack, are going to stop breathing, struggle with anxiety, depression, or just simply think you’ll lose control of everything…Take a deeeeeep breath, and try to rationalize with yourself – because we all have our moments. (I do, like every daytrust me.) And if you can, try to laugh at yourself. Laughter makes all things better. (and it produces natural chemicals in your brain that helps your nervous system!)

Remember – we’re not going crazy. (Even if you act a  little crazy sometimes!) It’ll get better. 🙂